dumbasses

missed the entry for the month of september! damn. not that i think anybody's keepin up with this any longer.
was juz browsin through the internet, doin some research.. haha! u must be wonderin what the hell am i researchin for. well. nowadays i juz kinda like to spend my time doin those kinda things. its useful, really! it increases whatever knowledge u already have. so what if it makes me a nerd. haha!
so i'd been browsin.. and browsin.. and browsin. till i saw a page. kinda like a blog, only there's not even an entry. a woman's blog. or rather, women's blog. there were only pictures. pictures of them kissin.. huggin.. and the picture which has the greatest impact on me: the tattoo at her back, between the shoulder blades. when i saw THAT, my chest kinda constricted, my throat felt a little bit too tight, and i juz stopped breathin altogether. why is the million dollar question.
i'll be damned if u could answer that.
i mean, its not like i care anymore.
its not like i'm still not over it.
its not like i'm still in love.
its not like i even wanna see it!
but hell. i cant take my eyes off it.
hmm. love makes a person do all sorts of crazy things, huh?
i mean, not that tattoin is crazy in general. but for me it is.
i wonder if they're forever. i am feelin guilty and i have no idea why!
maybe coz i know that once upon a time, i'd been like that too.
anyway. sorry dylaila and dydydydyndo!!! our hari raya plans had been crushed! but nevermind, next time okies?