dumbasses

missed the entry for the month of september! damn. not that i think anybody's keepin up with this any longer.
was juz browsin through the internet, doin some research.. haha! u must be wonderin what the hell am i researchin for. well. nowadays i juz kinda like to spend my time doin those kinda things. its useful, really! it increases whatever knowledge u already have. so what if it makes me a nerd. haha!
so i'd been browsin.. and browsin.. and browsin. till i saw a page. kinda like a blog, only there's not even an entry. a woman's blog. or rather, women's blog. there were only pictures. pictures of them kissin.. huggin.. and the picture which has the greatest impact on me: the tattoo at her back, between the shoulder blades. when i saw THAT, my chest kinda constricted, my throat felt a little bit too tight, and i juz stopped breathin altogether. why is the million dollar question.
i'll be damned if u could answer that.
i mean, its not like i care anymore.
its not like i'm still not over it.
its not like i'm still in love.
its not like i even wanna see it!
but hell. i cant take my eyes off it.
hmm. love makes a person do all sorts of crazy things, huh?
i mean, not that tattoin is crazy in general. but for me it is.
i wonder if they're forever. i am feelin guilty and i have no idea why!
maybe coz i know that once upon a time, i'd been like that too.
anyway. sorry dylaila and dydydydyndo!!! our hari raya plans had been crushed! but nevermind, next time okies?

irritatin!

oh goddammit! i forgot to write in for the month of july!!! sorry guys. was busy laaa.. hehe.
anyways, i'm not at the library.. some indian 'concert' playin juz outside.. and its kinda gettin on my nerves, really! sheesh! irritatin laaa..
hey hey hey!!! next week da puase! yay!!! cant wait for it! hmm. so whats new eh...?
i got the coffee bean job, but i rejected it after a little thought. they're payin only $4/hr! hai.. i'm so used to gettin $6, u see.. thats why. kinda felt bad coz i'd already confirmed it with the store manager, but in the end i juz didnt turn up for the orientation.. but nevermind.
today. juz got my pay, yessss!!! would be goin t0 mustafa centre with my darlin little furball. eheheheh.. cant wait! i seriously need to get a new bag. hmmm..
well.. i'll juz wait for him to call on me =]
byeeeeeeee!

no more punches!!! =[

alaaa.. betapa sedihnya beta. hari ini hari terakhir yang saya dapat bertemu dengannya. eeeesh! stop it seh, haha! nak jiwang jiwang, tapi tak boleh make it. macam faham eh...? lol.
but yeah, really! i am sad bout it laaa..
not as in sad as in Sad. its juz that i'm gonna miss him real bad. i'm gonna miss whatever nonsense he's brought in to my life. let me juz illustrate a few to u.
like: smackin my jendol.. sniffin me here and there.. punchin me on my arm.. playin wrestlin.. and so on. many many more stuff! hhaahahahaha. u guys must be thinkin that i must be crazy to miss all those things, but yeah. what to do kan..
i dont know if i can even meet him today itself. he's been busy for a kenduri at his aunt's.

and u know what!!! i hate hairdressers! i told her to juz trim my hair! trimmin is juz to cut bout a cm off the hair! but but but!!! she'd snipped inches off my head! what the hell kan! i was kinda pissed, but still managed a smile as i thanked her. bloody hell. now i'm lookin kinda funny funny! hai.. miss my hair seh. so sad! sob sob.. i am never goin back there to have a haircut! ever!

cant wait to find a new job. applied at coffee bean.. but they havent called for an interview. felt like goin back to pan pac sometimes. rindu bala! hahahahahahahahah..
hmm. ok laaa, gues thats bout it then =]
boiiii!

back to bein specky... =]]]

this week.. i'll only be workin on fri, sat, and sun. damn. i wonder why is it when elaine's not there, ,there will not be much functions at pan pac, thus not many workin days. hai.. faster come back elaine!!!
obviously i'm bored today, which is the reason for this entry. duh. wanna go somewhere, but not too sure where to. argh!
and by the way. i am attached! to the one and only alwi! yeye! thanks to bala and the gang [or so thats what weeeee said] finally decided to drop it on hairul.. hai. felt bad, though. the night itself, after work he'd went to DXO and gotten drunk. next day at work, he's got a bad hangover, and still workin his 12hour shift. crazy guy! of course, we're still talkin, and in contact.
hmmm. anyways. i've gotten my specs!!! woohoo!!! haha! the moment i reported for the roll call at 5pm, wei liang looked at me, snickered and said, 'dont step decent la u'
hahahahaha! apeje tau! and bala was like 'are u tryin to look smart?'
i mean, hello! what the hell is that supposed to mean?! ish ish.. tak baik seh bala! hmph.. takpe takpe!

for tmr.. i'll be goin to 'paris!' finally. hehehehehehe =]]]
cant wait!
hmm. ok la ok la. wanna get somethin to eat ni! hungry!
boiiiiii.....!

yoohooladeedoo!!!

yay! guess what! i've finally climbed up a rooftop! a playground's rooftop, that is. with one very hyper 'monkey'! hehehehehe =]]]
i am one happy girl! and yup. i've not forgotten that i'm supposed to update this every month. sorry for those who'd been waitin for so long, aite.....?
yesterday. went over to weeeee's place.. juz hang around, and helped his mum make kuih dada.. hahahahahahaha! it was fun! and was teased by his sisters badly dudes! but its ok though.. haha!
went there after his appointment at ttsh. and today. guess what?
i'll be accompanyin hairul to the hospital. this time, at cgh. hhaha! i guess i make a good companion, huh? [YEAH RIGHT] macam faham eh.....? lol.
i've so many things to tell! argh! tapi waktu tidak membenarkan saya buat demikian.. maklumlah, saya ini seorang yang amat sibuk. hahahahahhahahahaha! crap!
anyways, i really do have to get goin now..
and to dylaila!!!
I MISS U LAAAAAAAA... cemane ni...? later i got fever coz of that tau!!!
so sad.. sob sob.. =[
and do take care, okies.....? love u!!!

get on with it!

last i blogged was on the 18th of march. today's the 12th of april.. i guess i shall make it an appoint to update once a month yeah....? hehe.. sorry to disappoint those of u who'd been waitin for a 'follow-up' for so long!!!

anyways. this whole week's been damn borin! no work, no plans, no money.. hai. i mean seriously dude! thats the reason why i'm always hangin out with my friends at their place! hahas.. but hey, its not that bad though. its like i'm almost part of their family already. they even asked me to stay over some time. and asked me when i'll be comin next.
yesterday was damn fun!!! went out with ex colleagues kak siti and letchumy.. with a total of 5kids agein: 4,7,8,9, and 12. cool, huh? hahahahahaha! headache man!!! but i fell in love them immediately! they're so charmin and so cute and adorable!!! hai.. our hands were really full! and i told kak siti, next time we go out, bring them all along! hehehehehe =]]]

today. i'm gonna chill with shamu while she closes the restaurant. at bk midpoint. know what? in fact, i feel like i'm kinda busy person.. meetin friends here and there.. hahahahaha! tmr, i'll be accompanyin someone to 'reportin'.. i'm still thinkin if i should or not. its like a 50-50, u know....? damn. but i guess i'll jujz go along as planned. alwi told me to be careful. hahaha.. nonsense la him. asked a ridiculous question like: what if that guy kidnapped u and demanded a ransom from my mum...? i mean! sheesh! chill, weeeee!!! takkan la dia nak buat gitu kan....? apesaje laaa..

okies guys. thats bout it for today.
ciao.

yeye

hey dylaila's back!!! hehehe.. finally i'll be workin with my 'sister' again this sat =]]]
and and and guess what!!! she bought me a perfume!!! yay!!! anyways, i'm now at their place, karaoke-ing.. fun!!! maklumlah, sudah lama tak karaoke.. hehe.. but shy!!!
ok laaa.. sikit sikit aje la update okies?
oh and!!! i'll be meetin monyet later!!!!!!! yay!!!!! hehehehehehe...
i'm a really happy girl today =]]]